New found affirmation

Yesterday I found it just what I have always been looking for, I found it.  I found it just what i have always been looking for, I found it after a few keystrokes and a some signed pages of documents. He finally came to me.He said iv been calling your phone A long time son. I’m glad you finally picked up, now take my hand and walk with me but this time they’ll be no foot prints left in the sand. only a everlasting impression on your heart to do just and speak wisdom, to those that cross your path to love happiness and prosperity. In his closing words he said son now take this gift and return to the masses ,for I have many more calls to make.

The truth

Their are moments spent pondering between sheer disgust and utter despair. not knowing rather to hit my knees and pray for guidance,or lace my kicks up and prepare for war. This gos out to all the kids that ever felt what I felt.and been through fatherless homes, Broken Hearts, and jail cells. This is for all the prayers that fall on deaf ears. For all the people that try to be positive in this world of negativity. I hate how people walk around with fake ass smiles on their faces. While they pretend to lend helping hands only to kick you back down when nobody’s looking. This gos out to all the kids that felt what I felt. That have been lied to, cheated on and stole from.This gos out to the fucked up judicial system that never herd of justice. That puts us in chains, like the ones we adorned in days of slavery. without ever hearing our side of the story. This gos out to all of the lost kids just trying to find there way home. Back to where it all first began, but steadily being pulled back by worldly bullshit. That others in positions of power tell us is important,but in our hearts we know everything these people in power believe in is small,minuscule ,minute. dam near obsolete, compared to what we know to be true,but most people are to scared to speak up and overflow with the truth. we are filled with while others that are involved in clandestine activity have no problem spewing lies and hatred. This is for all the kids who seek a higher truth. This is for all the kids just like me.!

Silence

The silence between us is our trade mark it’s not a derivative of negativity nor, is it because of a absence of words it just belongs between us like the the dew to the grass on a warm Summer morning it’s our certainty of uncertainty; it signifies our love, for our love it is A symbol of the strength of our bond, and it’s a whisper of unspoken desires and lust for each other. But for tonight we can just lay here under the stars an listen to the loud thud of our hearts as we consummate our lustful desires.

A letter to my dad

Dear dad,
Hi, although I have never met you, hell, I don’t even know your name, but I felt obligated to write this for some strange reason unbeknownst to me. I’d like to start my letter by saying thanks for all you have done for me; I mean that sincerely. You made me one hell of a man. I know there are lots of fatherless children in the world, but like they say, every body handles shit differently. It made me a cold hearted tough skinned child, and i grew up to be an even colder  hearted, tougher skinned man. You made me crave for knowledge. I felt like if my dad was the only thing in life I didn’t know, and I learned everything else that I could then I felt Like I made out pretty good . I also have to give you your props…you must have been a fly guy in your day because of what the lady’s tell me…I’m pretty handsome, so thanks for that.
now, I wanna tell you about me, and all the wonderful things you missed out on my life like my school years.. I turned out to be a pretty good athlete; I played baseball, foot ball, and I’m a pretty good boxer. So, I like to imagine you where a pretty good athlete also. But who knows. I’m also a high school grad. I know that don’t sound like much, but these guys in my generation have like a 1 in 10 grad rate; therefore, I think I did good; I’m also a college student with a mind for Business. I have four beautiful kids…so yeah, I made you a grandad…not that you’ll ever know.
Last but not least, I wanna just talk. I wanna talk about how I imagine you. I always say to my self: my dad is a successful Business man or an athlete. Some times I even pretend you was a big dope dealer….Someone like Frank Lucas. I wonder are you religious? Did you find God,or did u find jah like me. Actually jah is the reason I’m writing this. He spoke to my heart while I was jogging a few minutes ago. He told me to clear my heart and mind. To let my past stop dimming my light so I can have a bright future. So with that being said, thanks dad for my looks, my athletic abilities, and my strength.
Sincerely,your bastard child

Just getting by

Just getting by I been there a while. Not knowing what’s for dinner. Not knowing what tomorrow may bring. I hoped every night that tomorrow would bring a better day,But it didn’t. It only brought more struggle and sorrow. People say that kinda shit builds character,But what is character worth in a world full of fakes. I’m like fuck it. I got to get out here and make it I’m tired of just getting by ,But hell it ain’t no where to turn. The streets only get you locked in a cage,Or dropped six feet deep in a box. Can’t go to the government there out of order. And doing your own thing takes money.can’t find a job for all the reasons above,So what is there left to do. Where is there to turn. I guess I’ll keep on getting by.

Blanglish

Blanglish or Ebonics as we so love to call it. I am not sure where;are why it started,But in my opinion I think it’s something we use as a cop out to learning correct English. I have Heard all the excuses as to why we talk this way,they tell me it’s our culture, it’s cool,they don’t want to learn the white mans language,they say it’s not important to be proper. Then you have got the opinion of other races. They say it’s ignorant to talk that way. It’s uneducated. They say we must not have home training. When I hear these opinions and reasons for talking this way. I think to my self look where we have came to as a people. We descend from royalty and now we can’t even talk. I hate the way black people are viewed in America. A lot of its self inflicted. I believe we will over come it ,and before the end of time we will ascend back to greatness. I have to believe that. It’s what gives me the drive to continue. It’s what I raise my kids to know. It’s my whole purpose for existing.

Torn

Torn

I’m black and blue from fighting myself. Almost destroyed ,by the anguish of having to decide rather to be A good guy, or bad? Rather to be right or wrong?Being right is so hard,but being wrong is easy. Why not drink?when drinking is so freeing and relaxing. Why not take mind altering drugs?when our immediate reality is so fucked up. Who ever said that we should be monogamist. Who’s rule is that to govern? When it feels so good to be sexually free and have group sex and orgies. I mean I want to be good,but dam it feels so good to be bad. Why shouldn’t I go to clubs and watch attractive woman get wasted?Why can’t I be apart of that subculture that mainstream society frowns upon? I know the bible says tho shalt not kill,but what if he pushes me.?2 pac said revenge is like the sweetest joy next to getting pussy. Why is the bible forced upon me?I wanna read it and all,but the shit I’m seeing and the shit I’m hearing Don’t quiet add up. I want to be right but it feels so good to be wrong. why shouldn’t I Lie cheat and steal?when America does it every day. While the world turns a blind eye. Why shouldn’t I be black?whoever said if it ain’t white it ain’t right! I’m just saying these are my own fucked up views on life!!!

Auras

Reds,yellows,and blues are all I see when I look at you. Your Colors are live and radiant. They vibe with mine.Your colors excite me because they tell me your the one for me. The colors tell me your kind gentle but a strong spirit. They tell me your capable of accepting an sustaining my energy. I see your a happy complex soul able to mingle with the complexity of my thought process. I can tell your the missing piece to my puzzle.

The people

I just wanted to take a minuet out of my bizzy day with my family an kids and say hello to the whole word press family and all the writers that see this and everyone that like comments an follows my material thank y’all all and I love y’all an i try to read an like and follow everyone that has a message in there work so once again thank you for the support and feed back is encouraged. Ps I’m working on a book so please stay tuned thanks

A Life of credentials

Credentials
Credentials are badges given and judged by society to say, “I’m better than you, or you’re qualified for this job, this frat, or that Fraternity”, but why do I have to have the credentials society up holds like being a Harvard, Princeton or Yale graduate? Well, all that’s nice, but its not me. I have my own credentials that I value. For example, my prison strips, my inked and Scarred body, My locks of wisdom, or my degree of graduating not being a statistic,or my credential of being a young black Entrepreneur. What about my ability to speak freely and let my soul bleed on paper while all my worries disappear with every stroke of my pen. Why aren’t my credentials good enough for your schools, or good enough for your jobs? Why is it that I am not welcomed to join your family’s. Why? But in the end, your only adding to my long list of budding credentials. So, for that, I thank you America.